Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Over the first hump

Week 12! I made it!! It's so weird counting everything by weeks because usually the weeks fly by and you don't even notice. But each new week while pregnant brings new symptoms, new pant sizes and new weight. So far it's been pretty simple and I can't complain.
My main symptom was fatigue. I've heard people say "I'd be in the grocery store, it would hit me and I'd think...I can finish in a minute, I really need to sleep on this cart". I wasn't quite that bad. But seriously it was like clockwork. 10pm everyday. I'd be in mid conversation and WHAM! I needed to go to bed right that second. It's like my eyes would go from wide open awake to half open drunken-like. It was quite funny. Unfortunately that tiredness didn't last through the night. I find myself waking up anywhere between 2:30-4 and unable to go back to sleep. That, I'm not a fan of but people keep telling me it's just good practice.
I can't button my pants. Well, I can and would force myself to get in them if I wasn't pregnant, but it's just too darned uncomfortable. I'm using the bellyband now, but I'm finding I just need to graduate into some maternity jeans. It'll make me and my belly happier.
As far as the weight, I'm a bit concerned because I haven't really gained anything. I've gone from 2lbs lighter than pre-pregnancy weight, 2 lbs up and back. So technically haven't gained anything. I hope my MD doesn't freak! We'll see! 12 week appt tomorrow!
Off to second trimester! See ya!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

And baby makes 3...

So, what can really prepare you for the news? Nothing really! I had gone to the store to buy a test and bought a box of 3 figuring that I'd need the other 2 when we actually started "trying". I told Jason I would take it first thing in the morning. Imagine my surprise when this appeared.

(I can't get this image to load horizontal!! )

I went to Jason and said, "Um, I think it's positive". He looked at it and said it didn't look positive to him. I told him to put his glasses on and he said "oh!". A blood test later confirmed it. So, yay! We're 5 weeks along now. More blood tests next week to confirm. So I'd appreciate your prayers that everything goes well! We're very excited!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Futile Friday!

I think Jon Gosselin is the biggest joke right now. I have been a long time fan of Jon & Kate Plus 8. I loved the banter, the kids, they way they pronounce things, their silly antics. I also loved watching "The Soup" the week after and their little montages on how Kate was a raving control freak! Yes, I believe that she was a control freak, but I think he allowed it. If you're passive for long enough, someone has to take control!!
This season has bugged way too much for my liking. You could cut the tension with a knife between the two. Then Kate seemed to complain about every little thing! So I was on the fence about who was in the wrong. But then...
Ok, so months ago Jon is in the tabloids for (not) having an affair. I was on his side for a while. Not so much approving of his late night rendevous with random younger women, but I believed that he was not having an affair. But seriously all tha thas followed...I'm not on his side.
One thing that I liked in the first few years of the show was that they would drive 1 hour out of the way with their 6 children to church. They wer pretty involved, would sport the "I love Jesus" shirts and would talk about it on TV. So I wonder why, when the trouble starts, they don't go to counseling. Why, after 10 year and 8 children, if they're there for "the sake of their children", why not the counseling.
Ok, so Jon still says "I did not cheat". Yet, how about evidence of earrings, smoking, and randevous to France...yah, nothing supporting his innocence. Now he's going out with a girl 10 years his junior who is all over the tabloids with her pants down and hitting bongs...yah, still not supporting his innocence! Not to mention his shiek new bachelor pad "with a new flat screen TV". Haha.

I don't know why I get wrapped up in this. Haha. All I say is that if it matters enough to you, you'd try a bit harder!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Catchy Title..

I've been harped upon many o' times lately for not blogging. Often I feel that even though I have many things going on in my life, sometimes they aren't significant enough to write on. I usually reserve that writing time for night when my mind is shut off and flatlined. I decided to make use of my down-time at work and see if I can blog from here...posting later of course.
So I sit here thinking about what I want to write on. Initially the title of "Interesting" comes to mind, and I muse about why what I have to say is more interesting or readable to others.

Then I think about "Ponderings", random thoughts to stimulate your mind. My mind isn't stimulated so I scratch that off as well.

How about "When dreams become reality"? I think of this because of my freaky dream of a giant earthquake...being in CA, "the big one!". In my dream I try to scope out the best places to duck and cover. I've been raised to get in the doorway, but then through recent trainings have come to learn that the doorway is the weakest place in the wall! Makes sense. Then I also learn that when glass explodes, it flys in all directions, so you might want to get out of the way. I deduce, while trying some deep breathing techniques in the middle of the night, that I should try the closet. Yes, while I might have some random things flying about overhead, I wouldn't mind being buried in my clothes, and I don't have to worry about flying shards of glass. A safe place.
I finally calm myself down enough to fall back asleep and then hear my cats manic-like meowing coming from the other side of our door. It doesn't stop for hours! "NO!" and isolating her or locking her in another room wouldn't help, but would just escalate it. When finally waking up, she's literally screaming at me. So then I think: hmmm, weird earthquake dream last night and great! my cat is freaking out. When do dreams become reality?
Although I find some/most earthquakes quite fun to be in, I'd rather not be in "the big one".

Now that title won't work. How about "the search is on!". I've had a lot more free time than usual at work, and I recently discovered that I have access to my email from work!! I did on my first day of work, but was very saddened coming to work on my second day to find that it had all been blocked. I didn't try again until last week (this being about 8 months after hire). So with that I've been doing some house shopping online. It's been very fun, but disheartening as well. Between my husband and I, we have some picky criteria of what we want in a house...as well you should if you're spending 300K+ on something!
We want to move out of Oceanside only because our commutes are so horrendous (me, at least 45 minutes 1 way without traffic, jason about 25-30). However, our pickiness, Oceanside is the only place that offers what we want in our means! Granted, we're not even at the preapproval process yet, so it'll be a long time coming.

That title was short lived. How about "It's a boiling hot sauna!!"
I'm very blessed to live in San Diego. It almost never goes above 80 unless you're inland. We don't really have to have a/c at home but one week a year. Usually at work I have to dress for 2 seasons. Whatever the actual season is, and frigid. I have a blanket, scarf and extra socks in my drawer not to mention a vast array of teas when nothing else will warm my freaky hands, I just put them around my hot mug. So, I was very surprised when coming in and opening the door to be hit w/ a thick wall of muggy hot! It was an immediate "oh geez ick!" reaction. We have since turned off all the lights. I made my regular routine of coffee into iced coffee (which was quite yummy), and a friend of mine brought over a fan for me. I'm wearing capris, a tank top and a button down blouse over that. I asked my boss if it would be inappropriate to wear a wife-beater to work :). She told me to go for it. I haven't been that daring yet. It's still 85 in the office and they're handing out popsicles.

I guess that title is too depressing. Because I can't settle on a title, insert your own :).

Monday, April 20, 2009

Giveaway at Jo's place!

Go check out Jo's blog! She's giving away some cool new things on her blog. I have about 5 entries because I really want to win!! You can have your chance too. Check out her site here: http://acesmommy.blogspot.com/

Thursday, March 12, 2009

PM meds

I know this isn't terribly enthralling, and certainly not profound after 5 weeks of non-blogging. I've been sick a lot this year already. Trying to fight off my 3rd cold for the year! Ridiculous, I know. But having been sick so much this year already, I feel that I'm quite in tune with my body. I seem to know when I'm getting sick. I know most people do when waking up with sore throats and such, but mine is a weirder sort of sign. I can taste really bad breath! It's a really odd thing. I know that we all, at times, have bad breath and we're either oblivious to it or we pop in some gum. But I know I'm getting a cold when I can taste that I have foul breath. Very odd. So apparently I've been smoking out people with my bad breath antics being that 3 times in a 3 month span is a LOT to be sick. Not a fan.
But, that was a side track. What I was originally going to say...regarding PM meds...is that I like the feeling of the Tylenol PM cold and Nyquil meds kicking in (mind you, I don't use them in combo, just listing them as an example). It almost feels like it starts in my toes and works its way up. But it's like the fun tingling, almost like you would do with body checks for you psych minded people. Telling your toes to go to sleep, then your calves, then your knees, etc. Except I don't have to do the work! Pretty soon it'll work its way to my brain, so I'll probably keep this short. It is making its way to my fingers, so I blame the meds for typos :).
I have a doctor's appt on Monday, so hopefully I can figure out 1) why I'm getting sick so often, 2) why I can't sleep at night and 3) why I am starting to nod off when I'm not even tired!! Not a fan!! and we'll throw in a 4) why am I so jacked up??
Goodnight!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Wordless Wednesday


Everyone has an infamous bath picture.
This one just happens to be after I colored my tooth :)

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Sunday musings

Jason and I went to church together in what seems to be a really long time. Most of the holiday times we were gone for the weekend and I was in Seattle last weekend. So we finally were able to go together. Yay! I was curious as to what the next segment would be. Since we started going to North Coast Church we had been dissecting the book of Acts. All of Pauls many missionary journeys were applicable to our times in having faith when the situation you're in doesn't really scream to have faith in. It was a long drawn out process since we had started going to NCC in September.

So, we go into church today and there's a big cartoonish sign that says "FEARLESS" with buildings and stuff in front of it. It almost like the "kablooey!" banners from the old Batman & Robin days. I was intrigues. The passage we were to go through was Joshua 1:1-9. I didn't realize that 9 little verses could be so amazing and impacting.

I mean, the first verse just says that Joshua was now in charge of leading God's people to the promised land. No biggie. He only had Moses to follow! Um, hello God, are you sure you have the right God? Pastor Chris makes a point that in those few verses God basically repeats himself, "have faith", "do not be discouraged", "do not tremble". Why would he make it a point to say these things so much? Um, cuz Joshua was probably making messes in his pants!! No pressure, you only have to follow the example that Moses started. Easy peasy. Haha. Uh, no.
Pastor Chris made a few excellent points. We worry. We worry about things material. We assume we have security in heaven because we said the prayer, but most of us only ask for help or thank him when things go our way or we're totally desperate.

"I will never leave you nor foresake you". We think we're at the end of our rope. We're really not. In these book Joshua is called to go to Jericho and defeat the city. When he is on his way, toting 40,000 behind him, he comes across a man with a sword raises. Joshua sees the irony in this as there is 1 man vs 40,000 and decides to go talk to him. He asks "Are you for us or against us". He said "neither". He then tells Joshua the land is holy and he needs to take off his shoes. Pastor Chris interpreted this as Jesus (who would not come for a long time ahead) tell him he was neither for him or against him.

At first we think, but that is God's chosen people, why wouldn't he be "for" us. Then comes the great example. Take any of our basketball skills. I'm lucky if I make 1 of 10 shots. Kobe and Jordan come on the court and I ask if I can be a part of their team. I'm lucky to be able to just PASS to Jordan let alone be on his team. Pastor likens us to God in this respect. I would be hell-a lucky to be on the team at Kobe and Jordan, he sure as heck isn't going to chose to be on my team, i'm subpar. Well, i'm taking the example a bit far because God would like us to all be on his team, our skills just aren't up to par :). Anyway, so because of this, this sworded, possible Jesus, says that he is on "neither" team.

Another take home point with all of this is how we rely on God. In bad times mainly. "God, the economy is so bad, please help", "What job should I get?", "I pray for my health now that I'm sick". Chris says, funny (as if he is God speaking)...I hear you praying to me about your work, but you never including me in your work before, you never included me in your health or in your finances. So why now? Because you're desparate? How about seek me in everything? It hit me that this is the lifestyle that I should be called to. A higher purpose. Pray for my work, pray for my husband, pray for my friends. Keep him in my life always, not when it's convienent.
I'm sure I'm not saying it correctly. If you're interested in more, you can always listen to the message online. It's totally worth your time!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Wordless Wednesday


Jess took a picture of me walking in Segovia. I love this picture!
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Monday, January 12, 2009

Photo tag

I was tagged by Joelle for a photo tag.

Here are the rules:

1) Choose the 4th folder where you store your pictures on your computer
2) Select the 4th picture in the folder
3) Explain the picture
4) Tag 4 people to do the same


This was the first picture I ever took of my cat. I actually took two and they both came out evil like this! The other one she has scary blue eyes. It was a sign of things to come.

Now I'm tagging 4 people:
1) Jenn
2) Amanda
3) Michelle
4) Jessi

Have fun!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

100 things

Joelle had this on her blog, I thought it was fun. Just copy/paste and put in bold all the things you have done. Have fun!
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band

4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort

25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run

32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied (in general)-who will bold this??
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance-does being in the ambulance while you're mom was being transported count?
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Systine chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53.
Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a company
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62.
Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check -- Ooops!
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book

81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House (does outside the gate count?)
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life

90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95.
Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake-I think the dead sea should count
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100.
Read an entire book in one day

comeon people!!

Man I was crazy busy today. Seemed like they wanted me to authorize one New Years resolution after another. By that I mean the oh-so-lovely detox's! Ugh. I heard it all today..."I wanted to be a good role model"...she says after drinking 1/2 gallon of vodka since age 14 and now is in her 50's. Too late for that! Or, "my mom won't give me her credit card back until I get sober". LOVELY! That's an awesome motivation to stay sober. Heck, it might work but still is not a valid reason. I think this job is jading my sensitivity to the disease model of drug use.

Another, comeon people!! moment was my assessment tonight. I got slammed at work and then got notification to go on a mobile assessment. It was really sad because this guy has basically lost everything, has a restraining order against him, wife stole his money and he's in a nursing home trying to recoup his back. The staff were annoyed at him and called me to get him out of there. Long story short, he got more irritable when they dc'd him on meds he was FINE with before. No reason why they were dc'd. So I basically told him we wouldn't take him and to get him back on those meds, which he even agreed to. Dude, psychiatrically hospitalizing people is a p retty big deal..you can't do that to someone just because they annoy you. Sheesh.

The upside of my day. While I drive an hour to and from work with all the lovely traffic I listen to some pretty great music. Today they started playing something that I could tell was older, but has a great rock vibe to it and I just wanted more and more. After a few songs they came on to say it was Pink Floyd. I know it's no surprise that they're good, but I've never really sat and listened to them. They're amazing! Granted that was pretty much the only song that I've heard...i'm sure more but none that I could recall off hand. Anyway, if you have recommendations of a Pink Floyd song/album, send me a note! I want more!

Monday, January 5, 2009

The sickness continues

As the new year kicks off, I was hoping for grand entrance for 2009 since 2008 was a bust...but sadly I've been battling a nasty cold in welcoming the new year. It feels like it's only been getting worse. Luckily I have meds and should be better in no time.
I didn't put out Christmas cards this year. I wasn't terribly motivated to figure out a picture to put on a card and then address all of the envelopes while trying to figure out gifts to get people. I know that millions of people do it every year, but I opted out. Maybe next year. I did, however, want to put out some sort of Christmas letter due to the crazy year we had. So why don't I just put it in my new found blog! What a great idea!?
We started of 2008 with a bang. We took a nice trip to Oakhurst, freezing our butts off but all managed to leave relatively unscathed. I got pitched off my quad for trying to do a donut, my dad twisted his knee, but Jason prevailed through it all! We were quite proud of him. In February I went part time at my counseling job in order to go back to college part time. Jason and I had decided for me to go back to school to pursue pre-nursing. I took 2 classes: Anatomy and Chemistry. I fought hard to get into the Chemistry class that was closed for 2 weeks! But persistance paid off, I got an A in that class and got a wonderful rave letter of recommendation from my prof.
Sadly, during that semester while dealing with school and part-time work, I was never home. Helen, my stepmom, went into the hospital for about 3 weeks. She had decided that she was going to stop chemo treatments. We all agreed and supported her decision but were sad to see her taken from us. I tried to go over to the hospital or to the house when she was on bedrest on my breaks from school. Sean was able to fly out for a few weeks to spend her last days at home. All of us kids and my dad were there when she passed. It was incredibly sad and tragic, but surprisingly peaceful as well. I miss her like crazy. It's been tough, I've never had someone close to me pass. I hope this won't happen again for a long time. Around this time also brought us some exciting stuff. We got our first puppy, Oslo in mid-april and I passed my MFT exam 2 days after my birthday! It was a long time coming and I'm so happy to be officially DONE with collecting hours and studying. Blah.
Summer brought us a few more trips to Rincon with my dad and Oakhurst for the 4th of July. I also got to do a quick trip to visit Joelle for Sex and the City weekend! It was fun to visit her while she was pregnant. Can't wait to do champagne nights again. In June I quit my job to take two more classes and go full time. I nearly went insane as I had the most jacked up professor for Physiology. Lets just say that 5 weeks of 9-1pm 5 days a week was MORE tedious than 5 weeks of 9-3pm 5 days a week. It was that bad. Pulled off an A in that class too! Whoo hoo!!
During the summer Jason was looking for a job as his game released and we thought it would be best that he find a job out of the house. We had a few leads that disappointed us but by the grace and chance of God, Jason found a job in San Diego! So two days after I took my finals, we hired 2 men to pack up our house and headed down to San Diego! Sadly, our first night of the move our dog Oslo got scared and managed to escape from our backyard. We were devestated as we were looking forward to having him in our big house with a big backyard.
Jason worked during the day and it was now my turn to find a job. God blessed us with leads and a job within a week of moving down here! Because of new hire paperwork, etc. it took FOREVER to start the job. Unfortunately, because they didn't work me as much as we needed financially, I had to look for another job.
After the move we decided that we needed to get involved in a church. We found North Coast Church which is a ginormous church down the road. They have these things called Growth Groups, which we decided to join immediately because we figured it was the only way we would meet people in such a big crowd. We were so blessed by doing so. Having people pray for you and keep you accountable has been a great thing for both Jason and I in our marriage.
In the meantime, taking us to October, we decided we really wanted to have another dog since we loved having Oslo around. I searched around for weeks waiting for the perfect dog. I was unsure about most that I found until I found this little black pup at the shelter. She had the cutest little face and as soon as I saw her it was like an "ah-ha!" moment. I put a hold on her and she was ours a week later. Heidi has blessed incredibly. She has such a sweet disposition and is our "snuggle pup".
I did manage to secure another job. God has totally blessed us with this position! The perks are awesome and it basically is doubling our income. I just finished my first month of training and have been getting great feedback. We got to have our white Christmas up in Oakhurst this year. It was beautiful arriving there while it was snowing. We made a snowman and I made a snow angel :). The year finished with both Jason and I getting sick, which could be indicitive of cleansing 2008 from us. I feel like we made a lot of progress in 2008, but am not sad to see it go at all. I hope 2009 brings us more blessings and happiness. Too many tears shed this year.

I will try to blog consistently and consisely...and I will do my best to condense it. I had a lot to say. Hehe.